Helplessness | Natantse - Electronic Music

Sorry for slightly late publishing but I tried to make it as small as possible. As you may notice I translated all published tracks to English. The music itself is language-agnostic due to being an instrumental but titles and descriptions required a work to do.

I did it because I want my music to be available for everyone who likes electronic music and who'll find this music joyful. Due to polish-language of my other productions I accept comments in both, polish and English.

The new track I'm publishing today comes from November of 2024. It tells about the moment when very close person has problems in her or his life and you really can't help your friend. You can't help because your life experience is not enough or even when it is you really need a God's wisdom to give. This is very hard situation for rescuing personalities like I was then.

The best thing you can do is what I did. I went to my bathroom where I had a lot of prayers and meetings with Jesus and I asked him for help. He told me what should I pray for in order to help my friend. I was doing it for a long time and today I see the truly God's work in her life. In my life there were big changes too. I described them near publishing some of the newest tracks.

The best thing in this situation was not to force being wise. The rescuing people often want to help and want to be smart because they meet their needs. It is all about proving to be useful. This endless proving circle is best broken by helplessness feeling.

Helplessness is brilliant sometimes. You can't force any clever sentence or words which could be taken as yours. You don't have any idea what to do to help. It is the best situation to remind where the true wisdom is and furthermore who is that wisdom. In such cases the helplessness makes you go to the God much closer. In fact, it is the best what you can do.

I tried to describe the feeling of helplessness in this track. Despite making you closer to God the feelings aren't very nice in that moment. Therefore this track is not very nice or joyful but further results of it are.

History:

I composed or rather improvised the melody on October of 2024 where the situation described above was the worst. Later I added a pad, very slow but rhythmic sequence and final sound effects. Full track editing took almost a month because I was working weekly on it.

Now, I had to equalize track volumes because the first version was too quiet. Finally, it sounds quite OK and it is worth publishing.

The funny situation happened when I sent this song to my friend. I didn't want to do it before the problems become solved because I found it really sad. She found it completely different or even emotionless. I am really interested in how you will find this track because every listener's perspective is totally different which is very cool.

Workshop:

KORG Minilogue XD synthesizer
Behringer UMC1820 audio interface
Ecasound, Sox and JACK as a software for sound editing (in Debian 12's terminal).

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