「ピアノアレンジ」みきとP // 小夜子【おた❤️‍🔥🔪🩸2025】

I’m tired.
the fact I have to wake up is punishment.
why does my existence persist?
the tears that fall echo like raindrops;
they're hollow inside, bursting with emptiness.
devoid of meaning, it persists.

those meant to hold me only left bruises.
those meant to save me left scars.
how am I supposed to reach for help
when every hand feels like a blade?
this story continues.

I count the quiet wounds,
not for memory, but for proof
that I once tried to fade into nothing.
even the songs I loved
sound like echoes of someone I no longer am.

If I close my eyes, even for a moment,
the world blurs into something I don’t have to survive.
this pain doesn’t vanish
but for a plethora of times,
I tried to disappear faster than it.

I wear the scar on my wrist like a shadow I didn’t choose.
A reminder that I remained
when I wasn’t sure I wanted to.

The rain keeps falling
teardrops without meaning
and I have to tell myself there will be another day,
yet another day I have to live through.

one day, i will disappear.
when that day comes, then you will
finally see me.

　　　　　「ピアノアレンジ」みきとP // 小夜子【おた❤️‍🔥🔪🩸2025】
　　　　　piano: ota (http://ota.moe) @otattemita
　　　　　poetry: ota
　　　　　photo: otagraphy

　　　　　recording & master date: 2025.11.27
　　　　　ota music track #1160
　　　　　
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