Misericordia inmortal

Te amé como solo ama quien sabe
que el tiempo no perdona.
Te mostré la noche,
la quietud,
la promesa de no desaparecer nunca.
Y tú la deseaste.
Querías quedarte
cuando todo en ti aún estaba vivo.
Querías la eternidad
sin conocer su precio.
Pude haber dicho que sí.
Pude haber mentido,
llamado regalo a la condena,
compañía a la soledad compartida.
Pero te miré
y entendí que amarte
no era retenerte.
Negarte la eternidad
fue el último acto de piedad
que pude ofrecerte.
Te arrebaté el futuro
para salvarte de convertirme en tu origen.
Desde entonces cargo con dos ausencias:
la de lo que fuimos
y la de lo que nunca debí permitir sentir.
Hay decisiones
que no se toman para sobrevivir,
sino para no condenar a quien se ama.
Y esta,
esta me acompaña
cada noche.

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I loved you as only those do
who know that time shows no mercy.

I showed you the night,
the stillness,
the promise of never fading away.

And you desired it.

You wanted to stay
while everything in you was still alive.
You wanted eternity
without knowing its cost.

I could have said yes.
I could have lied,
called a curse a gift,
called shared solitude, companionship.

But I looked at you
and understood
that loving you
was not about keeping you.

Denying you eternity
was the last act of mercy
I could offer.

I took your future away
to save you from becoming my origin.

Since then, I carry two absences:
what we were,
and what I never should have allowed myself to feel.

There are decisions
not made to survive,
but to avoid condemning the one you love.

And this one,
this one stays with me
every night.