I’ve Stopped Chasing a “Career”— My Body Made Me

There comes a moment when pushing harder no longer feels like growth.
When success looks right on paper, but your body starts pushing back.

This video is a reflection for highly sensitive, intuitive, empathic, and neurodivergent people who have tried to build careers in environments that reward constant activation, speed, performance, and self-override. It’s about what happens when work stops being exploration and quietly becomes survival.

I share my own path: from early creative work, to immigration, to tech — and what I learned when my nervous system started speaking louder than my ambition. In this video, I reflect on:
• why sensitivity and depth often struggle in high-performance systems
• the difference between growth and chronic nervous system overload
• how the body communicates misalignment long before the mind catches up
• why gratitude can sometimes suppress grief instead of honoring it
• and what it means to redefine success without abandoning integrity or purpose

This isn’t an anti-career message. And it isn’t about “quitting everything.” It’s about learning to tell the difference between building yourself
and betraying yourself, especially when you’re wired differently.

If you’ve ever wondered whether something was wrong with you
or whether you were simply trying to succeed in a system that wasn’t built for your nervous system, this reflection might feel familiar.

Chapters:
00:00 — Building vs Betraying Yourself
01:25 — When Work Stopped Being Exploration
05:05 — Loving the Craft, Struggling With the Environment
06:45 — When the Environment Costs More Than the Work
09:00 — When the Body Speaks First
11:10 — Nervous Systems, Medication & Survival
13:20 — Growth vs Chronic Overload
15:10 — When Gratitude Becomes Suppression
16:35 — Recovery, Rest & Permission to Exist
17:55 — Wandering, Alignment & True North
38:20 — Choosing Truer, Not Harder