DiSoRdEr (ft. Kasane Teto) [SynthV Original Song]

YAYYY TETO SONG!!!

This song is directed at a specific person in my life who's SUPPOSED to be taking care of me THE RIGHT WAY, while I was also just like "lemme throw in a couple other things in my life too"

2025 update: Said person is a lot better now but this song still stands regardless. IMPORTANT NOTE THOUGH, THE TINY GREEK LINE DOES NOT MIX WITH THE ENGLISH TOO WELL SO IM SORRY ABOUT THAT

bookmarked, this will be fixed im sorry teto

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CREDITS:
Music, art, lyrics, video, tuning: Saturn Candies
Vocals: Kasane Teto synthv

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LINKS:
Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/drive/folder...

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LYRICS:

Drag myself awake
It's nothing new, nothing new
That is all so much to take
Oh, what am I here to do
Just another day I lie in the life without a tie
I stare into the smoke with the feeling I provoke

Hey, are you okay?
Well I don't know what to say
You won't know when I decay
I guess I'll lie anyway
All that love and stuff you preach seems to die within your reach
So I don't think you know why I needed you to go

Benefits, You don't get anything from me
Lose your shit, you said you'd take my life from me

Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons
Crying forms an ocean in this circle of emotions
Maybe I could stop myself from dying if I want
I refuse, I refuse
All my plans were made to use

Pray my life away
Oh what to do, what to do
I'm just hoping you decay
I'm such a mess, I hate you
I'm remembering the days you would hold those cigarettes
I'm hoping that one day, you will see all your regrets

Scared I'm in your steps
Oh what a shame, what a shame
Yet you think that I'm insane
Και κούκλα σου's not the same
Take a hold of what you see, not what you want to believe
You try so hard, but fail, in the things that you perceive

Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons
Crying forms an ocean in this circle of emotions
Maybe I could stop myself from dying if I want
I refuse, I refuse
I remember the abuse

You hurt us both, and I hate that trope
I blame you for why I'm like this too
Do you know all those moments you went on to shame me for what you gave me

So hold me up by my throat
And slam me down to hit and shove
No, I don't think you ever heard "I love you" honestly
So shine your gold instead of me
And say what you want me to be
Just hold yourself accountable and be nicer to me

Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons
You have formed the oceans in this circle of emotions
Maybe you could change yourself, be better if you want
You refuse, you refuse
All my life has been no use

Killing myself slowly with all these different poisons
I have formed the oceans in this circle of emotions
Maybe I could change myself, be better like you want
I refuse, I refuse
Due to you, I've been abused

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