I'd rather be alone than around most people

I'd rather be alone than around most people. Not because I'm depressed or have social anxiety, it's because most people aren't worth my time or energy. I'm a loner and I don't care to talk to a lot of people. The people I talk to in real life just aren't on the same frequency as me. Some have no idea what they're talking about, others are two-faced, wearing masks, trying to be somebody they're not. I realized at a young age I'm not putting up with that. Real talk: I'm very sensitive to frequencies. If you're on some two faced behavior or acting weird, I feel that energy immediately and start cringing. My social battery runs out super fast around fake people. I can only be around people doing the most for so long. I'm an ambivert, extroverted when I'm around people I actually connect with, but I need periods where I hibernate and recharge alone. And this isn't depression or social anxiety. It's realizing most people aren't worth your energy because they end up draining it.

I notice people who are comfortable being alone are actually the coolest, most chill, and grounded people on the planet. They have common sense. Meanwhile, people who always need dopamine hits and constant distraction are running from something. They can't sit with themselves. When you're comfortable being by yourself, you observe everything. You gain wisdom by watching people mess up and learning not to make the same mistakes. That's how I know so much, from observing, not participating in all the nonsense. I only consider two people my brothers for real. I only have a couple friends. I don't throw that word around lightly. I don't care how many people you see me with, majority aren't my friends. You can't give everybody your energy because people will drain you. When I'm around people I connect with, time flies and I won't even notice. But around fake people doing performative behavior, trying to impress others, being two-faced, I'm out. I don't deal with that.

This is also why I'm attracted to introvert and ambivert women. They're genuinely the realest people and way more self-aware than people who need constant distraction. I can actually vibe with them. Another thought: I want a girl who's there while I'm coming up, not after I already made it. Once you get to the top, it's not hard to get girls, but you don't know who's after you for money, fame, or actually you. Right now at this stage, that's easier to tell. A lot of extroverts look at introverts like something's wrong with them or they're depressed. I'm telling you, introverts and ambiverts are the coolest people you'll meet. Most down to earth, chill, ride or die people on the planet. If you relate to this, let me know in the comments. I find a lot of peace and comfort being alone. My thoughts flow better, everything's clearer. Even in a relationship, I'll need periods to be alone and recharge. That's just how I'm built.

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