Botanophobia // Asterian [CoF]

SOOO HAPPY TO HAVE THIS SONG OUT !! from this point onwards honestly u might see a big uptick in the quality of my music, bc now i feel like i have a really solid grasp on chord progressions specifically!! that and i just . am in love with how this song turned out and how my next couple songs r shaping up LOL

character in this is named alex btw!!! he's very cool and totally isn't experiencing the horrors or anything. you can learn more about the horrors he's not experiencing on his toyhouse page!
https://toyhou.se/26561123.alex-aziz

big big BIG shoutout to MothWithAPencil on tumblr for drawing the art for this video!! it turned out SOO good and i'm very happy with the full product! u can check out her stuff over here :]
[ https://www.tumblr.com/mothwithapencil ]

youtube is once more refusing to let me put this song's story in the description, so u can find it at the top comment! and u can find ME on these other platforms B)
twitter:   / dieoxidecarbon  
soundcloud:   / monoxide-p  
bandcamp: https://carbonmonoxideco.bandcamp.com/

coming to streaming services as soon as distrokid gets on that

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[Lyrics]
lonely boy, reaching for the stars, craving the moon
he got too close to the sun, woke up in the afternoon

little boy, hibernating till the start of june
if the world was perfect pitch, then he was grossly out of tune

careful what you say
remember who you were that day
wonder if the man who shares your face
had also used your name

past what you condemn
pretend you know how to repent
remember why you were
then forget it all over again

haunted by what has remained
scared of the unexplained
how can you let go of all
that you cannot recall

stubborn barriers contain
flora deeply ingrained
daffodils inside my head
they say they want us dead

whispers through the grape vine
my life is not mine
pass it through the grape vine
my mind is benign

blink and you're no longer here
picking stems inside your ears
it seems my body's smarter than
what holds back a tired pen

blink and at once you're awake
lay back down slam on the brakes
it seems i'm no smarter than
what holds back a flooding dam

what i mean lost meaning
grieve for the living
set it back to square zero
settling roots grow

tired boy, existing only inside his head
alive but already dead
throw up spores over my bed

little boy, too young and too old
he says to me
paradoxical designs
let him color outside the lines

don't know what to do
forget why you're feeling so blue
do the flowers behind your eyes
know how much they mean to you

thinking through the pain
regain
live through all this again
shed all you can't erase
you'll regret it in the first place

trace your sins around your palms
hiding from weeping psalms
padlocked by a broken wall
and you're feeling so small

memories he undertook
flora an open book
i hear tulips, and they say,
they tried to keep me safe

whispers through the grape vine
everything is fine
sing it through the grape vine
my life's the punchline

blink and you're no longer here
picking stems inside your ears
it seems my body's smarter than
what holds back a tired pen

blink and at once you're awake
lay back down slam on the brakes
it seems i'm no smarter than
what holds back a flooding dam

what i mean lost meaning
grieve for the living
set it back to square zero
settling roots grow

shouting through the grape vine
your hand lays in mine

blink and everything's so clear
killing what i thought was real
it seems my body's smarter than
what holds back a bleeding pen

close your eyes cover your ears
will yourself to disappear
it seems i'm no smarter than
what holds back a flooding dam

what i felt lost feeling
live for the grieving
reaching out towards the moon
settling roots bloom

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MP3: https://drive.google.com/drive/folder...

Inst: https://drive.google.com/drive/folder...

SVP: https://drive.google.com/drive/folder...

Vocal midi: https://drive.google.com/drive/folder...