Perspective

Part 2, Song 7. The final song is called Perspective. An unintentional irony of closing out this part of my journey at the close out of the year, and ending it with a bang. The entry this song is based off was the most difficult to do, and this song was no different.
This song is all about the perspective of my experience growing up and the trauma that paved the life I had lived for so long. It's raw, blunt, and emotional. But most of all, its everything I've held on to for my whole life and had never spoken about before. It has always been a mix of blind loyalty, shame, and a straight up desperate need to lock the pain up and pretend it didn't exist.
The problem was, it never disappeared, and it only grew into more hurt, anger, and pain that was directed toward the people around me. The biggest anchor in my mind and heart is regret for the choices I made and how I treated people I cared about. All of that regret stems from the things I was forced to go through and deal with on my own.
This journey has opened those wounds that I tried to ignore, and this was the biggest one. Writing it out and sharing it is what has helped them actually start to heal. As I close out this chapter in my life, and this year, I look forward to more growth and opportunities to find peace with my past. Today, everything I've held on to that has weighed me down no long has power over me.
Today the trauma finally loses the war. Today the pain and anger has no home in my mind and heart. Today the darkness no longer holds the reins. Today I hold on to the light that leads to the life I'm worthy of and deserve.

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DISCLAIMER!
Written by Matt Crawford
AI Generated Music
This is about my mental health journey, but I'm not a musician.