I wanna Escape

Lyrics:

The thought won’t leave.
It just waits.

It’s not a plan, it’s a whisper in my head
A sentence that repeats no matter what I said
I’ll be laughing with my friends, then it crawls back in
Like “what if you just stopped?” -- yeah, it always wins

I don’t chase it, I don’t run
I just sit with it numb
Like a radio stuck on a station called “done”
Every moment feels loud, every future feels thin
And the thought taps my skull like “let me in”

I’m not brave, I’m not scared
I’m just worn to the bone
Every step feels heavy when you carry this alone
I don’t wanna be seen, don’t wanna be saved
I just wanna stop thinking the same damn phrase

It doesn’t scream
It doesn’t shout
It just stays
And it wears me down

I wanna jump
Not because I hate my life
I wanna jump
‘Cause I’m tired of the fight

I wanna jump
Just to quiet my head
I wanna jump
From the thought itself

It shows up when I’m calm, when things feel okay
Like it’s jealous of peace, like it hates my day
I’ll be staring at nothing, then it pulls my sleeve
Saying “this is an option,” like I’d never leave

I don’t tell anyone ‘cause words make it real
And real means panic, questions, how do you feel
So I swallow it down, let it rot in my chest
Let it coexist with the rest of the mess

It’s not drama, it’s static
Background noise in my skull
A constant “what if” chewing holes in my soul
I don’t want attention, don’t want replies
I just want one night without this thought in my mind

I wanna jump
Not today, not tonight
I wanna jump
It’s just stuck in my mind

I wanna jump
Like a broken refrain
I wanna jump
Again and again

If thoughts were harmless
This one would be too
But it keeps coming back
No matter what I do

I wanna jump
I hate that it feels so calm
I wanna jump
I hate that it feels so wrong

I wanna jump
I don’t even know why
I wanna jump
I just want it to die

The thought stays.
I don’t move.


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